La la lullaby

I wish, I die peacefully in my sleep tonight.

So tomorrow morning, when the sun rises in the east

I dont have to rise once more.

So that, Everything is done for once and all.

Tonight, when I close my eyes and rest,

I wish i get shipped to some alternate universe.

or just hang in the space.

i want to feel the consistent dread of not wanting to die when you are so near to passing on.

Tonight, When I finally close my eyes.

I need it to be the last time.

i want to remember everything and everyone I've ever laid my eyes on.

to be honest, I don't think I will miss anyone. I just dont love anyone anymore.

Tonight, when I go to bed and not wake up in the morning,

it would be such a treat to the ears, listening to the people say, she went in her sleep. 

Oh!! What a peaceful and dreamlike death!

To do list

wake up early, before 8.

Make your bed.

Stop scrolling.

start reading.

Do not miss people too much, most of them are jerks anyway.

sleep early, at least try to.

eat good food, eat at least.

Stop being cranky. Nobody likes it.

write everyday, even if it's just a sentence.

Don't be sad all the time. It's hard for everyone.

work out, just sweat it off.

Stay occupied (at least try)

Survive, you are not alone in this.

Don't die!!